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Legal Drug Fanfiction: In Your Eyes

TITLE: In Your Eyes
CHAPTER:  1 – Oneshot
AUTHOR: setosgirl
DATE: 5-27-06
FANDOM: Legal (Gohou) Drug
DISCLAIMER: I don’t own Legal Drug. CLAMP does. *sniffle*
PAIRINGS:  Saiga X Kakei
TYPE: angst/romance
WARNINGS:  shounen-ai, char. death
OCs: none
BETA: none
WORDS: 492
SUMMARY:  Kakei is dying, and Saiga doesn’t want to let him go…
NOTES: I gave both Kakei and Saiga first names here; Saiga is Kikue, and Kakei is Saisha. I just thought they were pretty names, I don’t know if they mean anything. I also gave Saiga a power, though that’ll be obvious on its own eventually. – (10-26-10) ALSO: ancient, cringe-inducing fic here.

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In Your Eyes

Kakei smiled as well as he could and leaned his head into the warm hand beside him.

“Saisha… koi…” Saiga’s voice was hoarse, but he didn’t dwell on it. His hand was warm and comforting…

“It’s all right…” he said quietly, and raised one bloody hand to weakly press against his lover’s hand. “Everything will be okay…”

Saiga’s hand stroked his cheek gently, his fingers combing through his hair. There was a rough edge to his caresses, though, an almost hysterical desperation. His other hand grasped his free one tightly, as though attempting to anchor him here. He didn’t tell him what he knew so clearly, that it was futile…

“Do you mean that?” Saiga asked, that terrible hope rearing its head in his voice.

He nodded wearily, his eyes slipping closed. “You’ll have a long, happy life, an you’ll marry a sweet man within three years…”

Saiga’s hand clenched convulsively on his, slipping in the blood. “Koi…” he said in a choked voice. “Don’t say that. You’re going to be okay.”

He smiled indulgently and opened his eyes again, turning his head carefully to kiss the firm palm beside him. “No,” he said calmly, looking at him. “Don’t do this to yourself. Accept it. Believe me when I tell you what’s going to happen…” He smiled a little. “I can see the future, remember…”

“No! You’re wrong, Saisha… You’re wrong, this time…”

He smiled and shook his head slowly. “No, I’m not wrong. You’ll be okay, Kikue, if you let yourself…”

“No…” His large lover’s voice was quiet. “No, not without you…”

He nodded painfully. “Yes, without me.” He disentangled and lifted his bloody hand gently to Saiga’s face.

“No…” he protested weakly.

Kakei ignored him and gently touched the dark sunglasses he wore. “Let me see your eyes…” he murmured.

Instantaneous refusal greeted the request. “I can’t,” he said firmly, raising his free hand to the glasses as though to hold them in place. “You know what happens when…”

He nodded, closing his eyes briefly against the pain. “Yes, I know… Please, show me.” He stroked Saiga’s cheek, but made no move to take matters into his own hands. “I know what I’m asking…”

Though he couldn’t see his eyes, he imagined he could feel Saiga’s gaze boring through him as they sat there, only his labored breathing for background music, the request heavy between them. After a moment, Saiga gently pressed his palm to his lips in a gentle kiss and nodded. Slowly, his hand moved and pulled the sunglasses down, revealing his closed eyes.

After a moment, slowly, they blinked open. Reflective orbs of the purest silver captured his own with promises of relief, of serenity, of final peace…

“Beautiful…” he breathed. His chest gently settled and didn’t move again.

Saiga slid his sunglasses back on and moved Kakei’s glasses to close his eyes with one bloody hand, then took his hand and sat there in heavy silence.


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